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HOPES AND DREAMS 2014
At church on Sunday we had a wonderful illustrated talk from
people who have been working in a variety of mission fields. There was a
reference to the Isaiah verse 6:8:
‘Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, ”Whom shall I
send? And who will go for us?”
And I said “Here I am. Send me!”
That verse appeals to me so deeply. I am one of those
like a child in the classroom with their hand up, me, me, me, pick me. That’s
how that verse speaks to me, and that’s how Sunday’s talk appealed to me. I
felt like Tigger. I want to go, me, send me, Lord I’ll go. What, when, where,
how, just pleeeeaseee can I go, pick me. In my head I was planning to see if I
could tag along (with my 14 year old son – taking him out of school) on one of
our leader’s imminent South American mission trips.
What I am not so hot on, is waiting patiently and quietly
for God’s voice, waiting on God’s perfect timing. I’d be off like a shot, out
of the starting gates if I could. And a lovely friend at church stood with and
‘got’ me and acknowledged what he called ‘my adventurous spirit’ and how hard
that is at times.
Not least because maybe, I have to sit tight and stay put
in my current mission field, in the midst of being Mum, (wonderful but
challenging at times) and wife (ditto).
I’d like to play my violin in the worship band, write a
book, paint more, go on mission, be a good Mum, be a better wife. Live, Laugh, Love,
Dance, and oh yes learn to be a DJ. I want it all, reach for the stars. You
know me Lord and my adventurous, impetuous, enthusiastic spirit. Maybe being
‘out’ of my comfort zone is actually my comfort zone if that makes any sense.
Staying put and being a housewife etc and doing dusting is so out of my comfort
zone. What are you teaching me here Lord?
All I know is that I need to remember it’s NOT ABOUT ME,
it’s about Him and what God has planned for me. I have to stop and breathe and
be still and connect with God and trust that He is God and He knows best. So
Lord this year I pray that each day I will get better at handing everything to
You, trusting You and surrendering everything to You secure in the knowledge
that You will work everything together for good. Thank you Heavenly Father.
Amen
